“Ready naka magkauyab Jan?”
Last Sunday, I was asked by a friend that shitty question which I answered heartily and truthfully while I am laughing inside ‘cos what a question. Face-slapped me with the truth. #ForeverAlone
So, why are you single?
“Ang sarap maging single! Pero mahirap ang mag-isa.”
Well that was my post last January 11, 2016, 1:00am. And as of now, I am laughing at this post. I feel like I am the person my friends as me, “Desperado na ba Jan?”
Let me give you a general information. I want to explain my situation as of this writing. (Don’t worry, I will be posting if luckily there will be an improvement with my lovelife.)
There are 3 types of being single.
- Single by choice. Those people who opt to be single because they want to be single. Those who don’t entertain suitors or any relationship which involve commitment and love. Aaaaand, let me also add here those people whose standard are so high that we can’t reach the standard. Well, we can also blame here the kdrama that they were, might be, influenced. The main lead is so perfect that you wanted your partner to be like that. Am I right? Girls? Omoooooo.
- Single because no choice. These are the people who are, sorry, low of market value. Those people who are not “ligawin”. These people are ready for love but love is not yet ready to come. Antay lang, bes.
- Single because ginawang choice. These are include people who are single but is seeing somebody who is already taken. We can also categorize those people who did not know that they are the #2 or #3 or so on. #Saklap
So if you want to know what type of single am I, then as of this writing, I am on #1. Chaaaaar. Ganda. Actually, I was a #2, then a #3 then, now I am #1. Funny it seems but yea, I rejected someone from last year. And I think now I will take back what I just wrote. I think I am back to Single #2.
I am really not someone who catches everyone’s attention. Why, because my facial feature is not that pleasing. And I don’t make an effort to look appealing to boys eyes. I feel like I over exerted when I try to look mature as my age and act as also mature as my age. Then I became someone’s past time. Well, he went to me if the girl he was courting was busy or something. How did I discovered? When I told him I was already fed up with how he treat me, and I told him, “I’m outta here”, he then posted the picture of his girl the day after the confrontation. Damn, may utang pa na 50 yun!
Then here come Mr. X. He is caring and maybe would be a perfect boyfriend, buuuuuut, I really don’t feel anything about him. I honestly tried to give him a chance, but no to avail. I can’t bare to see him hoping for an US. So, I told him he is too good for me. Yes, I really don’t deserve him. Aaaand now, I am back to being single becaasue, NO CHOICE. I am happy with this life though. I feel really exhausted minding other people’s business, especially updating the other party of what I am doing. Well, I can also add that my standard is so high that Mr. X was sort of maybe 5 points. And please blame the kdramaaaa. lol
So to those people who kept on asking me, “Desperado na ba ka Jan? Nganong single pa ka?” I am single because God is making the best love story for me. Single blessedness. And, no, I am not desperate. One thing that I learned is whenever you hurry things up, you will also easily lose that something you have. They may not be the plan for you but you tried to make him the ONE, but look at what you are feeling right now, broken and the feeling of being rejected. Right? So to those people, who might read this, waiting for that someone, relax. Baka na traffic lang. OTW na yun.
Ps. To Mr. X, I know you know who you are, may the odds be with you. Let’s still be friend!